APEX Express – 11.2.23- No More Moments of Silence: Filipinx Identity & Critical Resistance

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A weekly magazine-style radio show featuring the voices and stories of Asians and Pacific Islanders from all corners of our community. The show is produced by a collective of media makers, deejays, and activists.

Host Miko Lee is joined by Guest Host Aisa Villarosa for another episode focused on Filipinx American History Month. This episode is focused on artist, activist, I Hotel survivor and rebel rouser Jeanette Lazam. We also hear a poem from Emily Lawsin and music from Bay Area’s Power Struggle.

Learn more about and support collective resistance to militarization and genocide in Palestine:

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Jeanette Lazams life and artwork:

• https://convergencemag.com/articles/coming-home-jeanette-lazam-returns-to-the-i-hotel/

• https://www.instagram.com/lazamjg/

Emily Lawsin

Power Struggle

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No More Moments of Silence Show Transcript 11.2.23

[00:00:00] Aisa Villarosa: In this episode, we’re providing a content warning. Our guest, Jeanette Lazum, discusses personal instances of racist threats, police violence, and utilizes a racial epithet.

[00:00:47] Miko Lee: Good evening and welcome to Apex Express. This is Miko Lee and I am so thrilled to have a guest co host this night, the amazing and talented Aisa Villarosa. Aisa can you please introduce yourselves to our audience? Say who you are, where you come from, and a little bit about yourself.

[00:01:09] Aisa Villarosa: Thank you so much, Miko, and it’s a joy to be with you and the Apex Express family. My name is Aisa, my pronouns are she, her, and I’m a Michigan born gay Filipino artist, activist, attorney with roots in ethnic studies organizing and teaching Filipino studies, in the wonderful Pa’aralang Pilipino of Southfield, Michigan. If you ever find yourself at the intersection of Eight Mile and Greenfield near Detroit, stop on by. And the genesis of our talk today started with a conversation around Filipino American History Month, right?

[00:01:54] Miko Lee: That’s right. And that’s what we’re going to be talking about tonight. so Tonight Aisa and I are going to be talking about Filipino American History Month. We know that it’s the month of October, so Filipino history, that’s something that’s deep and should be all year round, just like all of our histories should be something that we study. Tell us a little bit about who we’re going to be speaking to tonight.

[00:02:17] Aisa Villarosa: We have the honor of speaking with Jeanette Lazam, who is a many decades long living legacy, an artist, an activist. Jeanette has worked in spaces like the capital of California, but has also faced down state violence.

Both at the hands of the U. S. government through the very violent eviction of elders, primarily Filipino and Chinese elders, at the International Hotel or the iHotel in San Francisco, what was then Manila Town and Jeanette also is a survivor of political violence at the hands of the Ferdinand Marcos regime in the Philippines and is a champion of Nonviolent people power and that is only just the tip of the iceberg. Jeanette is also a prolific artist . She is the only surviving Filipino Manang to return to the iHotel After being a young person who stood and locked arms with the seniors to fight the eviction decades and decades ago, and she’ll be sharing some of her story with us.

[00:03:34] Miko Lee: I love this. We get to hear firsthand from experiences of people who were engaged in a fight for equality and still continue to do so. I love elders just taking the reins and keeping on fighting out there. Because we’re talking about issues that are deep and complicated, including Marcos’ dictatorship in the Philippines, and what went down at the iHotel in San Francisco, we’ll have some links in the show notes so that folks can delve deeper and find out more. But Aisa can you back us up a little bit? And for folks that might not know, give us a little quickie about the iHotel. I know we talk about it in the interview, but for folks that don’t know, give a little bit of background about the importance of the iHotel within Asian American movement spaces. Why do people need to know about this?

[00:04:23] Aisa Villarosa: Such a great question and a grounding question Miko. The iHotel is both a physical site, it is in San Francisco, and it is also in many ways A symbol of the struggle for collective liberation, for housing rights, for justice in the city of San Francisco and beyond.

And that is why often in many ethnic studies courses, in many Asian American and Pacific Islander courses, students learn about the iHotel. But as Jeanette will share with us, there is really no text that can describe the violence of an eviction, 3 a. m. in the morning on August 4th, 1977, when Armed police officers on horses essentially rounded up the peacefully protesting tenants and supporters of the International Hotel.

And This was part of a larger movement, a violent movement across the country that was under the guise of urban renewal, but was really about the continued criminalization of Black and brown and Indigenous and AAPI people. And Jeanette was a survivor of that. It is a story that is painful and yet one that we must not forget and that our generations must learn from in order to continue the fight for social justice.

[00:05:55] Miko Lee: Thanks, Aisa, for the little Asian American history lesson. We appreciate it. Folks should find out more if this is the first you’re hearing about this. It is a seminal moment. I also think one of the things we didn’t actually talk to Jeanette about is how Intersectional, the folks that were protesting at the iHotel were. That there were Black Panthers there, that there are folks from the disability movement. , that’s one of those things that really gets hidden under the rug is the different people that were engaged in that fight.

[00:06:23] Aisa Villarosa: Absolutely, Miko. The fight for the survival of the International Hotel was intersectional. It really is a demonstration of what healthy movement building can be. It is never easy. It’s often complicated. And yet, They answered the urgency of the moment and they did so together.

[00:06:46] Miko Lee: There were thousands of people that were involved in that movement. There were hundreds that were there. And tonight you get to hear from one person’s story, a little bit about the iHotel, and mostly just from an amazing activist, artist, and social justice champion. So we get to listen to the brilliant interview with Jeanette.

[00:07:08] Aisa Villarosa: It’s so meaningful to hear from Jeanette and as someone who is living currently in San Francisco’s Chinatown is someone who is revered enough to be on murals in Chinatown and yet popular culture and history often forget that Manila Town and Chinatown Coexist, that these are two powerhouse cultures, identities, people who, in some ways, as Jeanette shared, were forced together due to redlining, due to discriminatory housing practices, and yet the activists in Chinatown today are trying to preserve the stories of elders like Jeanette and also telling new stories through art and through activism and protest.

[00:08:00] Miko Lee: Aisa, please introduce me to your mentor, the amazing Jeanette.

[00:08:05] Aisa Villarosa: Thanks, Miko.

We are so honored to have with us today Jeanette Gandianko Lazam. Jeanette, hi, how are you doing today?

[00:08:14] Jeanette Lazam: I think I’m doing okay, yeah. I like the warmth, so I’m glad we have sunny days here in San Francisco that are not windy nor cold.

[00:08:26] Aisa Villarosa: Are you cuddled up with Samantha? And for the audience Samantha is Jeanette’s adorable cat.

[00:08:33] Jeanette Lazam: Samantha is cuddled up by herself. Oh,

[00:08:37] Aisa Villarosa: that’s all right. She can support us from afar.

[00:08:39] Jeanette Lazam: Yes, she most definitely will.

[00:08:43] Aisa Villarosa: And you know, in these, heavy times, sometimes okay is okay. So we are, we’re so happy to have you with us. I’m happy to be here. Thank you. Um, Miko, do you want to kick us off?

[00:08:57] Miko Lee: So we are here talking about Filipino History Month and the significance of that. Can you tell us what the significance of the History Month is to you, Jeanette?

[00:09:08] Jeanette Lazam: I think it’s a time where, you know, for many Filipino and Filipino American organizations, they come to the fore. And what I mean by that is they come and expose the culture, the languages, not just one language, but the languages and the food, the this, the that.

And it really comes to the surface. And you can see how much pride people have, I was talking with somebody the other day about the colonization of the Philippines. And when you look at the history of the Philippines, you have to take it for what it is. You can’t take something out just because you don’t like it.

So many people have decided that the colonization of the Philippines shouldn’t be… demonstrated during Filipino American History Month. I disagree. And so do a lot of other people. You have to tell that history because that’s over 300 years of history right there in terms of the Filipino community. In a nutshell, culture, language, food, dance, They all come to the fore during this particular month, Filipino American History Month, and I’m really happy about that. That’s what it means to me.

[00:10:46] Aisa Villarosa: Thank you so much, Jeannette. What you’re naming is so important that to be Filipino American is to take stock of the good, the bad, the joyful, the challenging. And you mentioned colonization. So much of what colonization forced upon us was almost an incomplete. identity, right? That we had to ignore the pain, pretend it’s not there.

Or there’s the concept of hiyap, right? Which is shame. And, And you know, this really more than me and Miko, but for the listeners, can you share In terms of Filipino history, and because we are currently seeing a second Marcos regime, you’ve lived through some of the toughest attacks on civil rights, both here in the United States and in the Philippines. Can you just share a couple stories for the listeners about that time?

[00:11:53] Jeanette Lazam: We’re talking, Bongbong Marcos, who is now the president of the Philippines, his father, Ferdinand Marcos was the president of the Philippines for 20 some odd years. He declared martial law in 1971 and it stayed for 20 years in the Philippines.

I don’t think I’ve ever experienced direct fascism, up in your face and very personal. Civil liberties that people had. We’re totally stripped the press in the Philippines was shut down and only one press was allowed to function which was the mouthpiece for Marcos. You could not congregate on corners of more than three people, you would get arrested.

Many got arrested because they were journalists, because they were activists, because they were civil libertarians. Thank Anyone and anything that posed a threat to the Marcos regime was either arrested, deported, or killed. And I was there during the imposition of martial law and it was really scary.

I have never experienced that kind of fear in my lifetime. In the United States, I was traveling with a group of friends. When I was about, I don’t know, maybe nine, 10 years old, we stopped in Macon County, Georgia, and it was the 1960s, late 50s, 1960s, and we were very thirsty, so we all jumped out of the car, and I did not notice there were two water fountains, and I went to the first one, and it turned out to be a white people’s water fountain.

And um, about a few seconds later, as I was leaning down and drinking from it, I felt a very cold piece of steel against my neck. And I thought, it’s not a knife, so it’s got to be a gun. And sure enough, it was. And I’m nine or ten years old, and this sheriff is standing over me with this gun pressed against my neck and said to me, you’re not allowed to drink at a white person’s water fountain.

And he said, if I could kill you right now. There’d be one less, and this is exactly what he said to me, one less nigga. And no one would mind. That point on, from that point on, I knew where the color line was. I’m not black, but I’m not white. And I wasn’t allowed to drink at a white person’s water fountain.

scared the living daylights out of me. And I backed up from that water fountain. All of us backed up and we got into the car and we left that example of the incredible racism in the United States. just steered into my brain. I was just like, totally taken. I was so scared.

I’m a kid. I’m nine years old, 10 years old. I’m a kid. And to have a gun pointed straight directly onto your, neck ain’t no laughing matter.

[00:15:50] Miko Lee: That sounds so scary. I’m sorry that you had to go through that. I’m wondering there’s such a vivid memory that you have from being a child.

I’m wondering at what point was a turning point for you in becoming an activist.

[00:16:04] Jeanette Lazam: Oh, was that right then and there I was a kid from New York, so I knew that there were stratas and class levels and where people of color fell in, but it never came that home to me.

I was finally able to take the whole question of low income or working class people of color, and racism. It all intersected on that one day. And I thought to myself, no we can’t go on this way. And it was that moment I decided I have to do something about the situation. Because I am not going to allow people to do this without a fight.

Yeah, it was that day. And it continued all the way when I lived in the Philippines. And martial law was declared. I fought it there and I fought it when I came back to the United States.

[00:17:09] Miko Lee: Is there a difference in being an activist in the Philippines versus being an activist in the United States?

[00:17:15] Jeanette Lazam: Yes. First of all, in the Philippines, you’re dealing with an island nation. And so with an island nation, there are all these islands that you have to You know, deal with dialect, with culture, with this, with that , it’s a very difficult process undertaking to do to bring out democratic notions when people have been so oppressed and repressed for over 300 years because the Americans come in after, the Spaniards.

So we. We never as a nation never really experienced our own homegrown democracy, and it’s very hard to deal with that over here in the United States. It’s much different. You’re not dealing with an island you’re dealing with, yes, many states, but they’re all contiguous and there has been a history of revolutionary. Fervor and revolutionary sentiment throughout the history of the United States, and it exposes itself in the labor movement, the gay and lesbian, bisexual, transgender, queer movement, women’s movement. It gets manifested in those movements.

In the Philippines, very difficult to do. So the concentration for revolutionary organizations happens within the larger cities in the Philippines. And the, New People’s Army is more in the rural areas outside of the major cities. you can’t compare it. It’s like apples and oranges. You can’t do it. You have to look at the concrete conditions where people at and work from there. You can’t go into a situation and wish that it could be this way.

It takes hard work and long days,

[00:19:41] Aisa Villarosa: so many long days and Jeanette always appreciate your nuance and the ethos of humility that you are challenging organizers and activists to have right that we in whatever space we’re in cannot come in with assumptions. And yet. At the same time as you were sharing, one could see similarities between the oppression in the Philippines.

In the States, and that oppression is around, how is your home stolen? How is your home and your sense of safety ripped from you? And you just talked to us about your experience as a nine year old, not being safe enough to go to the drinking fountain you wanted, right? And I know that at this moment, you’re talking to us from the Senior Center, the iHotel can you share? about what the iHotel means to you, knowing that you’ve had possibly more history with the iHotel than maybe anyone alive at this moment.

[00:20:55] Jeanette Lazam: The iHotel has to be situated Within the context of a Manila town.

Generally, anytime you get a Chinatown, there’s some sort of other town that kind of is adjacent to it. And you have it in Stockton, you have it in Sacramento, you have it in Seattle, you have it in Portland, you have it here, you have it in Los Angeles. Manila Towns are very is the hub or was the hub of the Filipino community starting from the 1920s on up.

And so the International Hotel, as part of Manila Town, plays a very significant role in how Manila Towns functioned, what they offered. What they did and why they were established. It’s not just because of the proximity to Chinatown, the Chinatowns and Manila towns of the United States get set up mainly because of racism.

We are not allowed to move or to buy outside of those established boundaries. And who established those boundaries, the local governments, the state governments. Which were predominantly white people. It’s like the history of Oregon. Oregon was a state that was supposed to be set up for white people only.

And many people don’t know that. But the iHotel is a very significant place. Historically significant, it welcomes in the first Manong generation. Now these are the people who came before me. The Manong generation, mainly elderly men. Some of them are married and their wives and their children are in the Philippines and some of them are single. And they come to the International Hotel and stay, and then they go away.

Merchant Marines it’s the first generation, the Manong generation, that started this all. It’s the Larry Itliongs and the Philip Veracruz and Joe Dionysus, that all started the activism of the Manong generation. And it’s important for people to understand who and what. And where this Manong generation stood for and where they went in terms of labor and how they stood up, how they stood up against the brutal, the incredibly brutal oppression of the contractors and the large agribusiness of California, Oregon, and Washington, and then the Alaskan canneries. To understand that history is so important because that’s where we begin in many ways.

We begin with that history of understanding the plight. Of the Manong generation who lived in Manila town and who lived and sometimes died at the International Hotel. My father was one of those guys. And when I found that out, I was even more curious, more thirsty to want to know what did they go through and how in the world they withstood the onslaught.

Of worker oppression and racism and still kept on going I look at myself and, that’s my inspiration. That’s what’s kept me going for the last 60 somewhat odd years is looking at that initial generation, the Manong generation, and what they brought to our community.

[00:25:34] Aisa Villarosa: And Jeanette, I love you because you keep it real, and I know we’ve talked about the Manongs both as what you’re describing as revolutionary in so many ways, right? These are labor activists and fathers, and yet they were also human. And flawed. And so I’ve appreciated the stories you’ve talked about where Manila Town, at that time, as you describe it, before the violence and the eviction surrounding the iHotel, it was bustling. It was loud. It sounded noisy. When you talk about it, I picture people like my dad who were walking around and Zoot suits, because Filipino men at the time, I’ve read, were trying to go to tailors and were outfitting themselves in the best suits they could just to really stand up to some of the hostility and the racism they were encountering.

[00:26:38] Jeanette Lazam: That is so very true. it put everybody else to shame.

They were so sharp with their double breasted, sometimes zoot suits, polished shoes. Fedora hats. They were genuine and incredibly good looking. And I’ve seen, I have pictures of my father he’s standing on this little bridge in Central Park with his friends, with his army buddies, and they were all dressed up. And you’d think they were going to a fancy dancy, whatever place. No, they had swag. That’s the only thing I could say.

[00:27:19] Miko Lee: I love that, and I could picture it perfectly, and I like the way that you describe all these people strutting around, and the way you describe it is so visual, and I was saying to you when we first got on how honored I am that I have a piece of your art that’s hanging in my house, from the amazing Aisa and Lauren, and I’m just wondering if you could talk to us a little bit about it about your artistic practice. What inspires you and how do you combine your work as an activist with your work as an artist?

[00:27:51] Jeanette Lazam: I had always wanted to draw, but I never really did because my sister, my oldest sister she was a graphic designer. And so I was always like in her shadow. Years passed, so I’m sitting there doodling, and and in twenty, sixteen or seventeen, I moved to Taos, New Mexico.

And my bedroom window faces Taos Mountain. Taos Mountain is a vortex, and you can feel the incredible energy. That vibrates from that mountain and I would get this every morning and it was telling me draw. This is your time to draw So I did.

So I started drawing the Pueblo. And I started drawing scenes in and around Taos. And Taos is a very artistic community to begin with. So that also provided a lot of inspiration. And as the years went by, I started to draw more and more outside of Taos. When I finally moved I started doing owls. I suddenly realized that there’s a whole level of animals and insects and so forth that are on the endangered list. So I started drawing bees and bumblebees and all sorts of bees. Then I started doing the American bison or the buffalo, how all of these creatures Were on the endangered list or practically at that point where they didn’t exist anymore. And I knew that I had to do something about that in terms of my art. And so I stayed with that for several years. And then I turned myself to culture. I started looking at the Inca, the Maya and the Aztec and how rich and often bloody, but rich.

history they had in building civilizations that somehow disappear from the face of this earth. And I started looking at their colors, their color schemes were incredible. So I did that for a while and I wanted people to get exposed to that. However, In between that, I found myself getting wrapped around Philippine mythology, and when I went to look at our gods, our deities so forth and so on, our supernatural forces, I found very little.

There weren’t pictures so if there was something written, there were no pictures. And so I finally found a book that gave me some sense of what they looked like. And I have to say, fi Philippine mythology, whomever interacted with it, had an incredible creative mind. We had the most blood thirsty, , mythological creatures that I could think of.

Anywhere from the Aswang, which everyone knows about, to this creature called the Pugot, P U G O T, which is mainly from the Ilocos region. And it’s a huge mouth with a body from the mouth that walks on its legs and hands and feeds on children. And when I found, I was like, Oh yeah. I was absolutely mortified.

But you know, that’s what Philippine mythology is. We do have the supreme bakala, who is the supreme god, and all the other deities, his daughters and his sons. But there are also these horrendous and wicked mythological creatures. And the reason why I was trying to bring it out was, I firmly believe, and I found this out, In my research and drawing that you cannot.

Cannot understand the history of the Filipino people unless you take into account their mythology and their religions, whether you disagree with it or not. That’s part of the history of our people. And that part is incredibly rich. So I learned a lot from it.

[00:33:02] Aisa Villarosa: It is rich, and it is a mythology that has been threatened by colonization, when you mentioned that it was difficult to find writings that is all by design due to colonial oppression and the myth that Filipinos We’re always Catholic or always followed Spanish culture and religion is completely false, right? So I always appreciated your deep diving, not only into Filipino mythology and culture, but connecting those dots, especially to other indigenous cultures. Jeanette, for our listeners, can you briefly share for folks who aren’t familiar with the Aswang, and because even for me, I remember watching the Filipino channels as a kid, and they’re usually depicted as cheesy vampires, but we’d love to hear your

[00:34:10] Jeanette Lazam: your take on them. They are.

They are. They are vampires. They are usually women. They have the body up to the stomach of a woman and the rest is a fish tail and then they have bat wings and they fly around at night and your parents tell you about them because they want you to go to sleep and it’s scary enough. They are very, very scary.

[00:34:46] Aisa Villarosa: Yeah, that’s effective. It also reminds me of, there’s a wonderful older book by Dr. Clarissa Estes called Women Who Run With the Wolves, and it unpacks mythology and also often, it was a culture’s way of depicting women’s power and I have to say, as someone who identifies as gay, so much of your art has spoken to me, particularly because there is real homophobia in Filipino culture. Part of that’s due to colonization and religion, but your art really centers deities who go beyond a sexual binary. I suppose somewhat similar to two spirit indigenous depictions, and that’s really special.

[00:35:39] Jeanette Lazam: I’m hoping to do more research on the movement of gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, queer Filipinos here in the United States. As well as in the Philippines, and try to be able to capture that in art. So I think that’s my next real challenge.

[00:36:04] Aisa Villarosa: I would love to see that.

[00:36:06] Miko Lee: You are tuned into apex express, a 94.1 KPFA and 89.3 KPF. Be in Berkeley and [e-mail] Next up, take a listen to Live It Up. By Bay Area’s Power Struggle.

[00:36:21] Aisa Villarosa: You were listening to Live It Up by the artist Power Struggle.

Jeanette, in terms of thinking about the future, talk to us more about that. Talk to us about your hopes and dreams.

[00:40:01] Jeanette Lazam: My hope is that, in particular to the Filipino community here in the United States I hope that they will be open and above board take whatever knowledge my generation can give that generation, that they appropriate the genera that, they appropriate the knowledge and the history that my generation is releasing. It’s important for several reasons. One, it makes our, history of Filipino people alive, very alive in the faces of the ones that are coming up after that generation. It also provides the continuity in our history. If there’s a break in continuity, it’s very hard to kind of climb back because what happens then is that people die. And if my generation dies, and it will, it’s important that your generation and the generation after yours appropriates whatever we’re giving, you don’t have to like it. You don’t have to love it. You just have to take it and then sort it out for yourself and then transfer it to the next generation. So there’s a level of continuity. That’s my hope and in the broader, population.

I want people to understand what it took to build the United States, what it took the level of sacrifice that the working class of this country had to make in order for this country to be built.

California’s agribusiness. Would not be where it’s at today if not for the Filipinos, if not for the Mexicans, and a few other Asians like Japanese. That’s also true for Hawaii. Who built this country? Who built this country? And people have to answer that question with fervor and knowledge.

[00:42:38] Aisa Villarosa: And with honesty.

[00:42:39] Jeanette Lazam: Yes, total honesty.

[00:42:44] Aisa Villarosa: Jeanette, you end… Each of your emails with, when I dream,

I dream of freedom. And what you’re saying to us is that in order for us to realize this freedom, we must do so collectively.

[00:42:59] Jeanette Lazam: Yep. And that’s no easy task. Because at every twist and turn of the struggle for true democracy in the United States, true social justice, You’re going to be making allies and you’re going to be leaving other allies behind because you no longer agree with some of the things they do, but it’s not to mean that they’re enemies.

And you’re going to be meeting new people, and you’re going to get involved with their lives and their struggles. And get to know them. So it’s every step of the way for the larger struggle at mind is a very intense and deep personal struggle. Do you choose to say you’re gay or lesbian or bisexual, transgender or queer? Do you choose to say that openly and above board to let people know? That this is who I am that happened to me when they had the first time they had district elections in San Francisco, I was at a open forum and somebody asked so how is this going to affect at that time the Castro and everybody knew this person was talking about how is the district elections going to affect the Castro.

I didn’t see anybody raising their hands and I just said as a lesbian, it will affect me greatly because we finally will have some level of and form of representation on the board of supervisors. Sometimes it’s a split second decision. Sometimes it’s something that’s well thought out. And that’s also true when you’re walking where you’re working with people. Sometimes it has to be. A split second decision, and other times, it’s longer. When I say I dream,

I dream for freedom. I dream for freedom for all people. Freedom from the shackles of sexism, racism, homophobia. That’s what I dream of. A true, functioning, honest democracy. Where social justice is not a movement, it is, it simply is.

[00:45:46] Aisa Villarosa: It simply is.

Gosh, that brings to mind the image of an ocean and that saying that the ocean is so many tiny drops. And what you’re challenging us to do is, in those moments where there is a sometimes split second decision, that we choose bravery. And we choose truthfulness in those moments. Jeanette, thank you so much for talking with us today. We’ve pictured Filipino deities. We’ve jumped from the Castro to the Philippines. And I am always in awe of your imagination and your artistry and your advocacy. Thank you.

[00:46:33] Miko Lee: Thank you so much for sharing with us, Jeanette. It was an honor to spend a little bit of time just learning from you, hearing about your artistry, your activism, and your vision for the world. We really appreciate you.

[00:46:47] Jeanette Lazam: Oh, I appreciate people like you because it’s through you that we have a voice and that’s important. That’s important. One of the first tasks is always going to be On some type of journalism and media, and we have to protect that we have to protect the progressive and revolutionary sources of media.

[00:47:15] Miko Lee: Thank you for sharing your wisdom with us.

[00:47:18] Jeanette Lazam: Thank you.

[00:47:20] Miko Lee: I really loved talking with your mentor, Jeanette. Tell me what’s your walk away. What did you hear her saying?

[00:47:27] Aisa Villarosa: It was such a rich conversation and. One of the many things I adore about Jeanette is she is a world builder in that she encourages anyone who is in her space to exercise their imagination. And as someone who’s been a bit of a veteran of the nonprofit industrial complex for, almost three decades now, it is shocking how frequently our imaginations are shunned, how we are often sent to work in siloed areas. The solution to so many of our heartaches is intersectional, is creativity.

So my big takeaway is hearing Jeanette talk about the trajectory of her life and how it essentially led her to really lean into becoming an artist. She has shared that she became an artist rather later in life. It’s a great example that You’re never too old or too young to start anything, to lean into your true self, and so many of Jeanette’s art pieces are odes to her identity as a social justice leader. How about you, Miko? What’s your takeaway?

[00:48:42] Miko Lee: She’s just a delight. She’s funny. She’s smart. She has so much wisdom. I really love interviewing OGs because it’s just constant pearls of wisdom. So I appreciate that. But I have another question for you, which is how did she come to be your mentor? When did you first meet?

[00:49:00] Aisa Villarosa: I first interviewed Jeanette during the Earlier parts of the COVID 19 pandemic, at the time, and this is a bit of my personal story, I was struggling with coming out to my family as a gay Filipino, and Jeanette shared with me her identity as someone who is LGBTQ, and it was such a moment of connection, even if we have many decades between us. The story she shares of being an artist, of being a Filipino, a gay person, a civil rights defender. It’s just a reminder that we don’t have to be only one thing. We are so much more alive if we can lean into our multiple identities, and Jeanette is a living example of that.

[00:49:56] Miko Lee: Oh, thanks for that. That is so right. We are all multifaceted. We are all these kaleidoscopes of change given where we are in life and the experiences we have. And it’s a delight to talk with your mentor and somebody I’ve heard about from a long time. So thanks so much for celebrating Filipino History Month by really talking with somebody that you admire so much and I can see why.

[00:50:23] Aisa Villarosa: Last week for our part one of Filipino American History Month, we talked with Pinay scholar, poet, activist, and historian, Emily Lawson, about her poem, No More Moments of Silence. It is Ate Em’s chronicling of the power, complexity, heartache, and love. Behind Filipino American identity, held together by centuries of struggle against colonial oppression and white supremacy, our Makibaka heritage, one shared by Black, Indigenous, and people of color grappling with settler colonialism and government extraction.

Now, to close out Filipino American History Month, I’m honored to share with you an excerpt from No More Moments of Silence, taken from a 2011 Michigan State University performance by Emily Lawson.

No more moments of silence in memory of Joseph Aletto and Chongberry Zhang by Emily Lawson. With respect and apologies to Emmanuel Ortiz and Doria Roberts and thanks to Reverend Edwin Rowe who taught us to pray out loud with our eyes open at Vincent Chin’s grave. This is a scream, not a shout out, at all of those right wing Christian conservatives and wannabe left wing liberals.

Who start all of their speeches with a moment of silence. Crossing themselves, genuflecting, lighting boat of candles and incense for every single damn lost soul on this earth, but their own. This is not an old Simon and Garfunkel song. This is a fighting song for you flag waving, war on terrorism, 9 11 memorial addicts.

Clean out your ears and your skeleton closets, because I cannot take any more moments of silence. You hear me? I cannot take any more moments of silence. For silence is what buried one million of my ancestors in a hundred American wars. Silence is what drove the stakes through the backs of my people, whipped with chains of cane fires as low paid migrant workers burned out of their bunkhouses as they slept and white collar neighbors watched in silence.

See, I cannot take any more moments of silence. Silence for silence is what robbed our Filipino people of our multiple tongues as the noose of colonialism wiped out 7, 000 islands of surnames and languages. Leaving us with a bastardized Hollywood identity of John Wayne Dust Bowl movies with Panoi Indios playing Indians in silence.

I cannot waste any moments of silence because they add up to decades and years like the 10 plus that kept my cousin estranged from her brothers and sisters who refused to acknowledge how they all inherited. The brunt of the beatings brought on by their father, in the bedroom of their mother, even ten years after their deaths.

The wounds still lie wide open in silence. I cannot waste any more moments, for our concept of time has been warped by the violence that pervades our homes and hearts. Like the self righteous, now terminated governor, who stood at the cold stone podium, singing the heroic praises of the North Valley Jewish Community Center’s staff.

While signing a historic anti gun bill into law, looking down and right over the entire family of Joseph Aleto, who had also been shot nine times by a white supremacist a month earlier while he delivered mail. And the bold faced governor, in his corporate suit and tie, looked right past the family and only into the TV news cameras.

As Joseph’s mother, Lillian, hung her head in silence in the front row, ashamed that the governor couldn’t even offer his condolences, didn’t even mention her son’s name, Joseph Aletto, what more, his death or existence. Her surviving children’s fury helped her stand up, and that is why she is not silent.

That is why they are not silent. That is why we cannot be silent anymore. For silence is what allowed the Warren cops to storm in a Hmong American family’s home, barge down the steps to their Michigan basement, shoot 18 year old Chong Berizhong 41 times, killing him with 27 bullets at close range, and say the force was…

Justified? Silence is what prevents our Hmong teenagers from telling their story. Afraid that they will be the next casualty of police brutality. Afraid that they will be deported for being unpatriotic. Sent to a landlocked country they have never seen. Even though they obey all laws, pay taxes, go to poor schools, and work three jobs no other Americans dare want.

See, we cannot waste any more moments of silence. And this ain’t about just taking back the night, I’m talking about taking back the day to day, because I am done with the silence. Our feet can no longer be bound. Our eyes cannot be taped. Yell your prayers as poems. Scream the names of the dead out loud.

For I cannot take any more moments of silence because silence has already taken too much from me.

Emily Lawson. September 11th, 2003. Revised September 17th, 2007. Detroit, Michigan.

Amidst protest for an immediate ceasefire and end to occupation in Gaza, may all who continue to resist against colonization and militarization root in Atta Emily’s call, now and always, no more moments of silence. Visit our Apex Express website to learn more.

[00:57:06] Miko Lee: Thank you so much for joining us. Please check out our website, kpfa.org backslash program, backslash apex express to find out more about the show tonight and to find out how you can take direct action. We thank all of you listeners out there. Keep resisting, keep organizing, keep creating and sharing your visions with the world. Your voices are important.

[00:57:30] Miko Lee: Apex express is produced by me. Miko Lee. Along with Paige Chung, Jalena Keane-Lee, Preeti Mangala Shekar, Anuj Vaida. Kiki Rivera, Swati Rayasam, Nate Tan, Hieu Nguyen and Cheryl Truong tonight’s show is produced by me Miko thank you so much to the team at kpfa for their support have a great night.

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